We are introducing a new song, Psalm 62, to our congregation this week. Whenever we introduce a new song, I usually try to spend some time singing it repeatedly throughout the week so I gain a familarity with it. It fits in well with the 40 minute each way commute that I have. If you ever see a guy singing his heart out on 101, yeah, that’s me.
But looking up the Scripture from which that song comes, I found something more than insight into a song. I found a respite for my own soul.
5 For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him. 6 He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. 7 On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God. 8 Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us.
Psalm 62:5-8
How far have I removed myself from the beautiful simplicity of placing the entirety of my soul’s longings on God alone? Life in a fallen world, in my not yet glorified flesh, full of worries, full of idols that my heart so easily goes after. Full of restlessness.
Sometimes I feel as if people are leaning on me, counting on me to be strong. Eventually, it becomes clear that I’m not that strong. I’m not as steady as I wish I could be. As much as I want to be a rock that the church can lean on, I realize I can’t bear that weight. When you realize you don’t have the strength that others are counting on you to have, what is a man to do?
This Psalm turns the burdened heart back to an unending well of strength. God ONLY is my rock and my salvation. How many other things have I tried to make a rock to lean on in my life? In how many other things have I tried to obtain another version of salvation?
Bringing it closer to home, how many times have I tried to trust my OWN strength as my rock and my salvation? How many times have I simply thrown yet another load on my own back, figuring that my strength was sufficient to absorb that weight?
Eventually, this kind of thing will crush a man. It brings a mixture of frustration, self-righteousness, guilt, anxiety, and despair. In a word, restlessness.
But as I sang the refrain from Psalm 62 — repeatedly until I lost count — all those feelings that had seemed so weighty, so pressing, so imminent…suddenly they didn’t really matter anymore. The only thing that mattered was that I was singing to my God, joining a refrain that one day all His saints will sing in unison.
“O praise Him, Hallelujah! My Delight and my Reward! Everlasting, never failing, My Redeemer, my God”
For a few glorious moments, I forgot about that restlessness. It came when my thoughts were overwhelmed with God and nothing else. Truly our souls were made to find rest in Him alone.
July 6, 2011 at 1:30 am
my heart resonated with this one…..thanks for posting this.
July 10, 2011 at 12:04 am
definitely know that feeling.. thanks for sharing, kev